Mainly pictures

I don't want to use celebrities because they can work hard but with personal trainers and all that sort, this will hopefully be almost purely real girl thinspo/ some underrated models... :)

^I want to shave the side of the hair^

^she's 1O2lbs in this pic (so fuxking jealous)^

Got some of these pictures from an amazing tumblr, haven't been through all the pages yet but here's the site: http://prettyblackthinspo.tumblr.com/ 

the others I found randomly while looking at other tumblrs... when I find the links again I'll post them =).

Today was not that bad. I've only had some popcorn and an energy drink, doubt I'll be having dinner today and I went on a mini shopping trip so that counts as some exercise.

Current weight: 109lbs

Don't know how to punish myself =(

             (My webcam quality is beyond shxt maybe I'll ask for a Nikon or Canon for Christmas)

^ you can see the gullet :( ^

Today I went on a trip with my school to a maths lecture and it was really interesting, but being in Central London and having money while close to a McDonald's and other fast food places I went and had lunch there. I bought: a chicken sandwich, 2O chicken nuggets and a duck wrap =( *sick face* and I didn't even want to be sick after I just sat there and continued listening to the speakers. Now I got home and weighed myself to find out not to much surprise that I've put on weight... I'm up to 111 lbs now. But after my homework I'm going to work out and by tomorrow I'll be down 2lbs or even more (hopefully).

Current Weight: 111lbs after being SO stupid and stuffing my face today (N)

Oh my oh me

Pictures of me =/, taken about 1O minutes ago

May take some more later, if I can get my hands on my sister's camera. Just weighed myself and I'm 108.5 so we'll just see how this week goes. Today I had a caeser salad from Sainsbury's (with no chicken), a sandwich and some sugarsnap peas. Then on my way home I was really bad and bought some crisps, a kit kat and a snickers. I'm going to classify that as a binge because it rarely ever happens and I really want to throw up but there are people in the house and I wouldn't get away with it =(. Just going to have to work this off.

Chloe

just pictures

& I haven't been able to put pictures from my phone onto my laptop so as soon as I do they'll be put up here.

Just don't know (part 2)

I've finished all my homework for tonight... and I was bored so I thought why not write some more stuff about myself. It was my birthday not so long ago so I'm 17 now *party face*, I'm Ghanaian and Portuguese, so maybe one day I'll do a post in portuguese for no reason other than I might just feel like it. I'm really quite short, just under 5'2 which I've been since I was about 12 =(.

I do some odd things; I can't sleep unless I can hear a clock ticking, I love pickles and custard together (but that's only really when I'm on my period) there are other things but they're a bit much for now. 

I currently live in London, but either want to move to somewhere maybe in the US when I'm older or maybe even Portugal, depends on what I decide to do later in life, but atm I want to be a lawyer. Hopefully I'll do Classics at uni and then do a conversion course.

(I'm not sure why I'm spilling out most of my life onto blogspot but oh well.)

That's about it for now :)

Just don't know

I hope whoever does read this blog enjoys the pictures =)
(it took a while to find appropriate pictures and I'll look for more tonight if I fnish all my work)

^Naomi Campbell <3^

Haven't had time to take and upload a picture but I hopefully will tomorrow, only got home about half an hour ago and I have so much homework to do, but I just thought I'd post some more pictures of thinspo...

I had one of those days where I was doing really well and then all of a sudden it went downhill I didn't finish my lunch today but I did buy cookies and a sweet in the morning =/, but luckily I haven't and will not be having dinner. I've decided to just go back to no eating after 6 which means by the time I get home this would have started because there aren't many days where I manage to get in before 6 and unless I'm willing to part with money to buy something on the way home which is very unlikely then this should work well.

Current Weight: 11Olbs just no progress at all (N)

Chloe

P I C T U R E S S S

^just because he's so stunning <3^

^jealous^

I've been scouring twitter and tumblr for thinspo that would apply to me.. and some of the pics I'll be uploading aren't just thinspo but people who are just absolutely stunning and cause me to hate myself even more... -__-. my wrist and arm are a bit better, the shower I had  on thursday night made everything feel much worse, and I couldn't dry my arms properly for 2 reasons; 1. the towel touching them hurt like fuxk.. and 2. I didn't want to leave any blood on my towel that somebody could potentially see. Eating has gotten a bit better, Back to 1 properly meal with one snack and either coffee and water or cranberry juice and water. And thankfully now that it's winter if by some miracle I do manage to lose some weight, I'll be able to hide my progress and then possible trick my mind and shock myself when I start to wear normal fitting clothes and not hoddies with trackie bottoms around the place.

*I'll hopefully upload some pictures of myself with my next post*

Really want to start ballet again

*sigh*

Today I did possibly the worst thing ever, I cut again for the first time in so long. I don't know what came over me but one minute I was sort of fine then the next I had a blade to my skin, and now my wrist and arms are stinging like mad. I just think everything is getting a bit much, although that's not a genuine excuse it's the only reason I can think for as to why I did that. And it doesn't help that I can't lose weight and all my tests in school are just being given back and I'm getting shxt results, I hate failure so much and it's like that's the only thing I'm seeing.

Current Weight: 103lbs

hope everyone else is having a much better day than me.

Chloe x