Results and back from 7 weeks..

So I got my results not bad but could have done so much better, oh well. So going back home to Ghana was absolutely I don't even have a word to describe it, apart from the food it was fantastic. I was stuffed with food but hopefully I can lose some of the weight before I go back to school. I bought a new journal so I'm going to start writing in it and sticking pictures in there as well then basically keep a hard copy of my blogspot. Hope everyone else is doing well <3

It's been a LONG time...

So I'm not going to have any pictures for the moment but thats because I'm currently in Ghana and this isn't my laptop so I haven't got pictures on here (N). Been here since the 5th of July and it's really getting to me now, as soon as I came it was 3 meals a day and I had the horrible time where I could feel myself putting on weight. But then they realised that I don't like eating much and they were a bit annoyed but I've been able to get back down to 1 meal a day but I've put on weight. I'm back up to 8 stone which is horrible =(.
On the plus side I get to go back on the 24th but that is 1 day before results day and I have a gut feeling that I've failed and it is really getting to me...... BUT next week I get my iPhone so either way I think I will be happy for a bit.
I need to do some serious working out when I get back because I have no place and rarely any time to do exercise while I am here. Also my BBM has run out so I'm basically cut off from civilisation which has been horrible  haven't been able to chat to anybody for about a week, I didn't realise how much I depended on my phone.
CW: 8 Stone

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Nothing much has really happened, I competed on saturday which was fun but didn't get anything but did feel really self conscious about my thighs because they are huge still, and my shoulders which are like mens. Oh and I've started work experience in a hair salon which had me on my feet all day, but for some stupid reason I bought chips for lunch ate about a third then threw the rest away, I know such a waste of money but I got really full which is a good thing. AHHH ALSO prom is on Friday, I know it's going to be crap but I'll be with friends so that should make it a bit more fun =].

One of the best days ever =D

^Nom nom nom beautiful^

^want a side profile like that^

So I went to see my prom dress today, and I tried it on and the dressmaker said possibly the best thing I'd heard that day "It's too big I have to take it in 2 inches". fdsakjgrwiugbdovfadngdi so happy, but the only thing is I've lost so much weight off my bust because that's the first thing to go when the weight loss begins, ah well we all have to make sacrifices. I've had 6 meals in 7 days and an uncountable amount of strawberry and mango fruit tea with honey. That's what's been keeping me going, but I haven't been able to do much exercise which is really pissing me off.
Just randomly had a thought on how much I love it when I can feel/see a guys hip bones, and gosh my boyfriends ones are so nice, that was completely off topic but yeah....

Current Weight: 98lbs

*CRINGE*

Okay only because I promised, I do though need to take some side shots but that's when I feel better about my stomach and thighs. Also I'm aware that I look odd *hand over face*

BREATHE

^oh gosh^

^these were the least weird of them all^

And you get to see the real me, no lies no nothing just me

^WOOW^

^Need these hipbones^

So I've got my blackberry and I've decided that tomorrow I will upload pictures onto here =S, so scared. The worst part is I still look horrible =[.

^Need legs like those^

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99lbs yaaaaaaay, so happy. So I went to the tattoo artist yesterday and he said that the tattoo I want to get is £7O so I just need to save up and I'll hopefully I'll have it by next week to get it done. Really didn't think I would do it but I think this is a serious well done to myself =D.

"Enjoy the little things in life, because one day you'll look back and realise they were the big things."

^Pregnant and still looking amazing^

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I actually think I'll be getting my tattoo. I'm down to 103 right now and it is all thanks to the exams, so hopefully I won't plateau and I will get under 100 to ensure I am able to compete. No exams today or tomorrow so I'm still in bed, but I do need to get ready and go to the library because I find it so hard to revise at home sometimes. And I only just found out you can check the stats and see how many times your blog has been seen, and people actually do read it ='] or maybe look at the beautiful pictures either way thank you.
This has probably been the hardest weight to lose ever I had been exercising loads but nothing and then all of a sudden I was down by 4lbs, this makes me feel so happy. The whole structured meal time thing hasn't worked I just don't go downstairs and I think my aunt has realised that she can't make me so she has just left it which gives me more time to actually revise and then exercise. I've decided that when I get a working camera I will take pictures and put some up myself. *cringe*

Absolutely hate hospitals... “When we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves.”

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In a constant war with myself, I'm currently in hospital for a check up because there is something wrong with my blood, they say that I've got too many platelets so I have to get my blood pumped round to ensure there aren't clots. Everything is just getting better and better(!). Oh and joy of joys I really think my 'boyfriend' ended the relationship for both of us, yesterday I hadn't told him why I'd gone to hospital so he said that I'm pushing him away because I also didn't give the specifics of where I had gone out last night, then had the audacity to tell me that I'm going to the hospital because G-d is punishing me. I was so angry and upset that I just had a huge rant to my friend =[. I really do wonder why I like him sometimes *sigh*.
On a lighter note I went and got my supply of the pill as well yesterday and  took one and my period stopped =D soooooo happy. So the weight loss can begin again although 10 lbs most definitely isn't going to drop off in about 3 days but that's fine because I gave myself the end of this week when really I have til the end of next, so this mission is about to commence. I'll probably end up posting again later, after I finish at the hospital and library, I've got an intense revision schedule to stick to now after going a bit mental & just sitting about not doing much.
Current Weight: 109 lbs

“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves"

^Currently my favourite quote.^

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Thought today I'll try to talk about something other that calories but I'll probs stray onto it. So 5 days ago I told me boyfriend that I think we should go on a break and then immediately regretted it but I'm to stubborn to own up to things like that. We didn't talk for a couple of days then when we did we had another argument. We have so many I really don't think it's healthy but I really like him & I guess we end up doing stupid things when we are/ think we are in love. That's another thing my 'older brother' well that's what I'm going to call him because that's what he acts like decided he was a suitable person to give me relationship advice after cheating on his girlfriend of 4years twice =S. Anyhoo he told me that you aren't in love with somebody unless you would give up everything for them including your life. Now I know that I'm no expert but that's kind of extreme I mean like woooow. So anyway he told me not to get back together with my ex because he'll just fuxk about. I'm now going to stray... So I'm on the pill, effective contraception might I add, and 3days ago it decided to finish. TBH that is my fault but I thought that I had another sleeve somewhere but I was obviously wrong. So it finished and on the first day I didn't take it my period comes for the first time in 3 months, I'm so upset, so I'm off to the doctors/ family planning on Wednesday to get a 6month supply =D.
Today hasn't been that good I had chips from the fish & chips shop. My period makes me crave such weird things; Pickles and custard or olive and grilled cheese sandwiches which definitely isn't helping with the weight loss *sigh* guess I'm just gonna have to work out extra hard.

Exams *sigh*

^Beautiful Legs^

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So I've done 12 exams now, some went much better than others. I guess I didn't get as addicted to this as I thought I would which is good, I guess it's the exam stress. Haven't been eating properly so I'm down which is good but not as much as I thought I would. The sight of food makes me feel sick =/ and all I do is sit in my room revising or texting so now I've been forced out on walks to make sure I get some fresh air every now and then. I'm currently in a park with my friend and it's 23:38 which probably isn't such a good idea as there are always freaks around but oh well I was getting sick and tired of seeing the same thing day in and day out.
Current Weight: 110lbs =[
Still need to lose another 10lbs in just over a week which I don't think can be done because I really don't have time to exercise and I have 9 more exams left to do and these are considerably harder than the 12 I've just done. *sigh*

Revision =|

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Todays' been a really long day, I woke up at around 5 to start revision and I've only had one meal. Yaaaay me. My aunt also forced me to go for a walk because I've been stuck in my room revising and the only time I go out is when I have to go to school for my exams =/.
Today my meal was stir fry with grilled chicken not sure how many calories but I did go for a jog for about 30mins. Also got a new found love for my ipod, I only realised recently that it has a pedometer so now I can actually count how many calories I've burnt =D
Current Weight: still a horrible 114lbs
This slow weight loss is really upsetting me ='[

Exam!!

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So today the exams began I had one English paper and a French listening. English hopefully went fine but French was such a fail I don't even know how it was so bad but it just was. It was one of those things where you come out and think 'Hmm that might have been okay' but then everyone is there discussing which answers they put down and just think to yourself 'SHXT'. Ahh well I can't change it now so I'm just going to have to hope that the grade boundaries are low.
So anyway I didn't weigh myself last week because I just knew I must have gained. The whole structured meal times really isn't working for me at all.
Current Weight: 114 lbs

but on the plus side I haven't actually eaten that much since saturday because I kept vomiting because of the nerves but other than that I hope it's been fine. I'm going to start a fast from tomorrow even though that probably isn't the best thing to do because my body and brain need energy during exam period I'm going to have to make that sacrifice if I have any hope of competing in the summer.